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Afraid of Love
04:28
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In my soul, there’s something that I want to say
We laughed until we cried
We cried until I changed
I changed until I thought
Maybe now I can come back again
But I’m not here at all
I’m too afraid I’ll fall
From the cloud of my distractions
To the lowlands of my soul
Was it a dream?
Then what does it mean?
When all my self indulgence
All falls back down on me
I’m out on a limb
I wanna fall in
There’s all the ways I’m afraid of love
But I still wanna be
Here with you
Do you mind? For a moment I want to stay
We laughed until we cried
In my mind you remained
I woke up with that song of love you sang
Humming in my brain
But I forgot the words
Do they sting when they are heard?
Or do they sing, the way to rain
A heavy peace down on my heart
Sometimes I, I feel like, I didn’t want it, I didn’t want it this way
Was it a dream?
Then what does it mean?
When all my self indulgence
All falls back down on me
I’m out on a limb
I wanna begin
There’s all the ways I’m afraid of love
But I still wanna be
Here with you
So I’m not feeling around to being brave?
What is love, if not forever, is it love?
You broke me open, when you cut me up
I’m afraid of love, but I can never have enough
It takes me over, but it takes time
Is that alright?
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Don't Leave Me Behind
03:19
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Sometimes I feel what I can’t translate
Don’t leave me behind
Sometimes I sing the things I cannot say
So please don’t leave me behind
These little moments all
Will add up like the rain
Falling down so warm
These little moments are
The secrets that I send
To say that you’re adored
I woke up out of a heavy haze
A cloud was around my conscious mind
To pandemic heartbreak at the end of days
I’m unfurling in the whirlwind when the worlds on fire
If I can’t tell you then how could you know
My heart's been slowly opening over time
And all my flames are burning towards your own
So please, don’t leave me behind
Cause these little moments all
Will add up like the rain
Falling down so warm
These little moments are
The secrets that I send
To say that I don’t know why
Or where in the world I’m wandering
There was a flash in my mind
Or somewhere along that plane
To say that I don’t know why
I got so lost in my suffering
To say, It’ll all add up like rain in time
So don’t leave me behind
Don’t leave me behind
Oh please don’t leave me behind
Oh please, please don’t leave me behind
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In life
Look in my eyes
And see
We’re circled by
Uncertainty
But Little rose
You’re all I need
In life
I’m not surprised
To see
These changing tides
Are Pulling me
We spread the strain
The epoch changed
Are we not as safe
As we thought we’d be
In life
I don’t wanna come out on the highway
I don’t wanna step out of the door
I don’t wanna fall away in the decay
But I wanna know the state of the world
I don’t wanna come out on the meadow
When it doesn't really feel like spring
But I don’t wanna miss the pull of the old way
Cause it’s not showing me anything now
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5. |
Way of Love
03:42
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On the way of love
I remembered who I was
I had been holding loss
Everyone falls apart
I felt it shaking
A volcano song, the earth's quaking inside of me
I’m learning patience
Everything old is breaking apart in me
But on the pass
That brought me back
I couldn’t tell
The ground from grass
I couldn’t see
The forrest from the trees
Do you know
The way to go
On the way of love
I began waking up
I opened my eyes and saw
Everyone’s here, all souls delivered
I parked my car
In my old yard and felt all the old parts of me
Got high and walked
Into the hard blow of a heartbreak breeze
But on the path
That brought me back
I’d forgotten
All that I had
I need a sign
To come and remind me
Do you know
The way to go
I saw lightning strike
And every heart break apart
These are times of lies
All bee colonies will rise
A kiss betrayed me
Put your tongue on me baby
I’ve been parading
Like nothing I could describe
And so I thought
I could go
Through the pass
To the pool of souls
Take your time
No I don’t mind it
Cause all in all
All souls delivered
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Destined to Pretend
03:12
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I heard your summer spirit sing
In bathing suits on Orca’s Beach
At night the bay swallowed me
You’re an arm length away but out of reach
All my thoughts at once were tangled
As my soul unspooled like a string
Here all eternal moments wait
Is it a myth that I create
Can we find a way to mend
Are we just destined to pretend
Super massive stars explode
on July the 4th all time slowed
You said you hated me but I didn’t know
The collapse you felt around your soul
Above our own heads heaven dangles
Hung up by the thinnest string
Here all eternal moments wait
In the hell that I create
The darkened skies descend
Are we just destined to pretend
I felt your summer spirit leave
The night the light left Orcas Beach
By the bay I strain to see
What light is left for you and me
When we were near our bodies tangled
When we were here our eyes believed
Here all eternal moments wait
Your hair fell on my face
On the horizon light ascends
Are we just destined to pretend
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The Lowlands
03:09
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I Need My Prayers
03:18
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We drove out on Wednesday morning
Towards the curling colder ocean
We hovered like haze on the water
Covered up by clothes of salty air
I need my prayers
I need those old songs around me now
I need my where
Where are you going on without me now
Glorious sea of wonder
My brain lit up when we went under
Gone before I ever knew you
Walking up and down the stairs
I need my prayers
I need all my wits about me now
I need my where
Where are you going on without me now
I jumped out into the water
And come back as someone other
Sometimes I don’t know how to be me
Sometimes I can’t see if you see me
I don’t want to hide and look away
Standing on the rails edge I just stare
I need my prayers
I need all my friends around me now
I need my where
Where are you going on without me now
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9. |
Inside a Wave
03:26
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I found myself inside a wave
That I thought I could never trust in
Everyone of us
All will come to know
I feel myself inside a breeze
That I thought would blow me over
Everyone of us
All will loose control
I thought I
I thought I saw myself in you
I surrendered to the ruse
And I was rolling
In the heavy glory of
Visitorial
Oh can you show me
I found myself inside a grave
I was breathing in the dust
Carnations for a soul, yeah I know
But I don’t really know how to hold my
Head above the waterline
I wanna wash away
It’ll all deliver for you I adore you
It’ll all deliver for you anyway
I thought I
I thought I saw myself in you
I surrendered to the ruse
Or is it just me here pretending
That everyone of us
Are something other than
What we could loose
I thought I
I thought I saw myself in you
I surrendered to the groove
But I was rolling
In the heavy glory of
Visitorial
Oh can you show me
I found myself inside a wave
That I thought I could never trust in
Everyone of us
All will come to know
I feel myself inside a breeze
That I thought would blow me over
Everyone of us
All will lose control
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10. |
Year of Love
02:26
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Is this some strangers thought I have?
Or an implant, in my brain?
I don’t recognize it, but I’m glad
Cause its what’s waking me up from a dream
Before I found out where to look
Before I found out what I was
I thought that any other way
Was desolation for my soul
I prayed for so much shelter from the coming storm
They said, “your transgressions will make The Lord send you away”
A thread came loose from a seam
And love came near and intervened
And then I felt that old familiar feeling
You remember, the one when the universe walked through you
You let it take the time it took
What a year of love and pain its been
And we’re still writing out the book
About how we get born again
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Beta Radio’s Americana-folk sound is the result of a decade-long collaboration between Ben Mabry and Brent Holloman. Their sound is rooted in vocal harmonies, with guitar, banjo and an eclectic range of additional instrumentation and soulful arrangements. ... more
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